Wednesday, January 03, 2007

More blushing thanks

How on earth do I say thank you? I'm speechless.

Y'all are way too kind.

I'm so glad the definition of the "Best Mommy" award was this:
A mommy who joys in the job of raising little ones for the Lord.
Rather than this:
A mommy who knows everything and is perfect.
There are times I feel like a total failure. Like, well, today.

I took all five kids (plus a neighbor) to Walmart (mistake number 1). After acquiescing to sugar drinks all around (mistake #2) and hair care products we'll probably regret (mistake #3), I let the big kids supervise the little kids at the "Fun Center" while I finished up the actual FOOD shopping (mistake #4, although I did not give them any cash, and the little ones don't even know the arcade games need money!)

Around the chip aisle, the first basket started to overflow. I called my 13-year-old's cell phone (that's a mistake from way back) and asked her to bring me another basket. She casually mentioned that the 9-year-old was spending quite a bit of money at the "claw" game - you know, the one where you try to grab items like stuffed animals and cheap jewelry with an impossibly weak mechanical claw.

"What money is she spending?"
"She brought her birthday money."
Uh-oh.
"Let me talk to her right now."

I'll spare you that conversation.

My 9-year-old spent $18 (DID YOU CATCH THAT? EIGHTEEN WHOLE DOLLARS!!) of her birthday money. Normally a tightwad, apparently there was a watch she really (ya think?) wanted to win, so she kept plunking in more money. "Mom, if you'll just let me keep trying, I just know I can win it. I almost had it!"

My thinly veiled calm understanding OUTRAGE revealed just how FAR I am from perfection.

(I love her so much I bodily removed her from the premises and temporarily confiscated the remaining cash!).

I heard her feeble attempts at telling me it was her own money, but I wasn't listening. Eighteen dollars, BLOWN! I felt compelled to let her know about the cheapness of the prizes, the evilness of the people that swindle little children out of their money in arcades, and even the fact that she could have BOUGHT that watch for less than eighteen dollars.

She was visibly dejected. And by the time we got through the checkout line, the amount of money down the drain had begun to sink in. On the trip home, I heard a small voice from the back of the Suburban.

"Mom, do you think there are any jobs I could do to earn some money?"

Why, oh why, did I get so upset with her? Reality was about to be her teacher, but instead, I had to go and ruin everything with a heated lecture.

When I tucked her in tonight, I started to apologize (again) for coming completely unglued earlier. She patted my arm (there might have even been a little roll of the eyes, but I'll give her that one). "It's okay, Mom. I know. You don't have to say anything."

She's right.

I blew it. I feel bad. She knows it. She loves me anyway.

That's what keeps me going at this job.

Thanks for letting me share both the good times and the bad with you!
And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

2 Corinthians 12:9

25 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Katherine,

I came to your blog through your sister's, and have really enjoyed the thoughts and challenges you share. I'll be back for more encouragement!

Rachel Joy in BC, Canada

The NON-Superwoman said...

Congrats on the award. I only have one three-year-old and it's loud and it's crazy :-) Blessings to you. I enjoy your blog.

Chrystal said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

I really enjoy reading your blogs. It SO makes me feel like I'm not nuts for having a loud and crazy family too!

Continue to share. You are a great encouragement for other Moms :)

Laura said...

Congratulations - you really do make parenting seem enjoyable - even in the midst of mistakes. I actually look forward to the teen years when I read your posts (even the ones that describe how hard it is sometimes)!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations on the award! :)

When I was about nine I once spent THIRTY FIVE dollars in that very same machine. I was visiting my grandmother and came home with no money. My mom was pretty horrified. I totally understand that feeling of "just one more quarter and it's mine!"

Anonymous said...

Congratulations! I think that it's good for our children to know that even though we try our best for them, we're still failable human beings. And $19?! She spend $19 on the claw machine? I'd have have freaked out, too!

Anonymous said...

And this is exactly why you won! Congratulations Katherine! You so deserve this award. You've been an absolute encouragement to me on the Mommy end more than you will ever know!

Anonymous said...

I SO enjoy your blog as well - I love hearing the trials and joys from another busy mom like myself and it especially helps me know - I WILL MAKE IT!!! :) (Soon to be a mom of 5!!!)

lrlwreath said...

Congrats, and thank you so much for make all of us feel Normal =)) I too came unglued yesterday, sat down and had two of the sweetest emails from people and I just sat and cried, because I knew they could not be talking about me.

HA. But they were, and you deserved this award hands down. Enjoy.

Blessings.

Anonymous said...

Kids are always so quick to forgive. It is a SUPER lesson to me daily!

BTW - Congrats on your COOL award!

org junkie said...

Congratulations Katherine! I think that is one of the reasons I enjoy your blog so much....you aren't perfect and don't pretend to me and when I read about how other mom's mess up too once and awhile that I realize that I'm normal and that feels good.....so thank you for that.
Laura (orgjunkie)

Anonymous said...

I'm glad I'm not the only mommy who blows it occasionally. Congrats on winning your award :) I think you are doing a spectacular job!

Rachel Anne said...

Kath, you deserve the award!! I'm so proud of you.

rocks in my dryer said...

Posts like this one are the reason you won, Katherine!

Anonymous said...

Oh my, we all have those moments, don't we? It's refreshing to hear that I'm not the only one that lost it and went slightly overboard with a lecture!

Deidre said...

Congratulations on the award! I know you won because you are so real, not pretending to be perfect in all areas with your children. That's why I read your blog!

Anonymous said...

Your right...God is your teacher and you are hers.....I think this was a great story for all of us...

Anonymous said...

And THAT... is why I love your blog!
Keep writing and congrats.

Gina said...

You're my hero! Or my twin. Depending on how you're acting/reacting at the moment!

But seriously, I can so relate to that story. I had to do a double take and make sure I didn't write it.

becky said...

Hi Katherine. I found your blog several months ago and have been stopping by more frequently. I really enjoy reading the good and really really enjoy reading the bad! :) You are definitely and inspiration for all us moms who want to raise their children for Christ. Thank you for that! And, congratulations on your award...you so deserve it!

MicheleinNZ said...

There are nights that I go into my daughters' room and just look at them lying there peacefully and pray for them and my prayers sound something like this "Thank you, Lord, that they love me just the way I am, because boy, I really blew it today."

Thanks for sharing Katherine.

Anonymous said...

This is the most humble "thank you for the award" post I've ever read!
I love your heart, your humor, your love for your children, and your generosity in sharing it all with us!

Christina said...

Sounds like one of my trips to the store. Many mistakes involved. I think going to the store with kids is the most chaotic thing ever done by any mom.

My kids have lost money on these machines. I keep telling them you could of bought that with the money you spent. I think it's the thrill of winning though. That's if and when they actually win!

Paula said...

What makes you such a wonderful mom is the fact you reflected on what you did, apologized to your daughter and learned from it. It is all we can do.
Good job mom!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations! I'm so glad you won.