Saturday, June 23, 2007

Forgiveness

Dennis and I had a few good laughs, talking about that fateful trip with the two babies. His comment: "I think I've blocked out everything from back then!"

Yes, it really was as awful as I remember it. Perhaps more awful (awfuller?).

And yet...

We had committed to each other, for better or for worse, ten years earlier. I was prepared for the big "for worses," like financial catastrophe or physical disability.

But who could have told me that "for worse" could include cross-country trips in uncomfortable vans with relatives, dogs, and insomniac babies?

I didn't realize it then, but God was showing a little bit of Himself through a husband who not only put up with me, but who deliberately chose to forgive me.

I love the way The Message puts this passage:
If you, God, kept records on wrongdoings,
who would stand a chance?
As it turns out, forgiveness is your habit,
and that's why you're worshiped.

Psalm 130.3-4
The habit of forgiveness is what has gotten us through the dark times of our twenty-two years of marriage. We decide now that we will not keep a record of wrongdoings, no matter what. And (almost harder, and exceedingly more humbling) we choose to accept forgiveness, even when we know we don't deserve it.

That's why I can look at these photos from that trip, not forgetting the bad parts, but choosing to focus on the precious moments I might not have realized were so precious at the time. Yes, it's bittersweet, but that's what makes me love Dennis even more.

And I wouldn't have missed this for the world.

8 comments:

Karen@FamilyBriefs.com said...

Great pics! I do agree - no keeping score, no tit for tat all makes for a better marriage! Thanks for reminding us of that!

Susanne said...

Forgiveness is such an integral part of marriage. I think maybe we all need a better revelation of that. Lovely follow up to the other post about this trip, Katherine!

Tarrah said...

I have come accross your blog recently and have been enjoying it and trying to catch up. I just wanted to let you know how much I love that verse.

We have 2 children and would love to have 4, maybe even 5, so I have enjoyed reading some of your stories. Crazy and Loud sounds wonderful :)

God Bless, and I will be back.

Munchkin Land said...

Oh wow! Those are precious!!

Kili @ Live Each Moment said...

I loved the pictures, and I suppose you can just be glad those moments are over!

Beck said...

I think all of our early trips with The Girl were JUST LIKE THAT - I was this exhuasted, depressed mess and the only way I could handle being away from the security of our home was to bark out orders every five seconds. Such happy memories!

Jan said...

Your post reminded me of our first vacation trip, with two babies, camping out for a week, when it rained every day. Hmm...this seems to have the makings of a post....

Deanna said...

I can definitely relate to this post. It took only 1 cross country drive with my husband and daughter for us to realize that forgiveness is vital, even if it is more difficult.

We are again getting ready to make our annual drive from Michigan to Colorado. This Friday, we're leaving and it will be 4 girls (15, 11, 8 and 4), me and my extra 29 pounds of baby during my third trimester, my husband and a 90 pound drooling, whining bull mastiff in a minivan NONSTOP! Wow, this will be a trip to remember! LOL