Monday, August 06, 2007

Embracing the place

We got home last night, after a weekend in Austin for my nephew's wedding. I’ll have pictures and more on that later this week, and an update on the dog situation.

When we all got settled in and the coast was finally clear for me to check email, I was stopped short by a comment from my new friend Margo on Thursday's post. Here’s a portion of it:
I want so much to give myself over 100% to being a mother, but there is still part of me that wants to hold back and hurry these years along so that I can have my freedom again. I know, however, that God is calling me in a different direction-away from my own selfish desires and into my role as mother. I want to embrace these years and stop whining and complaining...I have to get past this stumbling block called selfishness. Pray for me as I learn to give myself and my life completely over to Him.
Margo so beautifully described my heart's desire - embracing the place God has for me. Here. Now. Not wanting out, not wanting more (or less, as in the case of housework, messes, laundry!) but accepting His will for me in the moment. Leaning in to it. Finding joy in it. Investing in it, not sliding by with the least amount of effort just to get through.

Amazingly, here (though it seems so confining) is where freedom - true freedom, not the me-centered "freedom" as the world defines it - is found.

But will I see it? Will I welcome the challenges as from His hand? Will I see these constraints on my freedom as the road that leads to it?

That is my heart’s prayer today. May I embrace it. May I embrace Him.
I will walk about in freedom,
for I have sought out your precepts.
Psalm 119:45

12 comments:

Jen said...

Walking in freedom...that sounds devine. How is the dog?

Lori - Queen of Dirty Laundry said...

I was talking to a friend about this just yesterday.

I love the title of your post, "Embracing the place." Because I feel that when i can truly be in that frame of mind, I am most content. Yes, being a parent is difficult. But it's a life we chose and that God chose for us. And we can accept it or complain about it. Which works best?

That's really true of every aspect of our lives, isn't it? The one thing we're really in control of is how we respond to the situations that we face.

Thanks for another post that hits the spot!

Grafted Branch @ Restoring the Years said...

Oh, me too, Margo! I need prayer for this too. Thanks Katherine, I needed this word of encouragement today. And yesterday. And the day before that. Oh! And tomorrow! ;)

Brandy said...

I went through a situation like this recently. I had to realize that God always has me in the perfect place in His perfect timing. What a great encouragement to moms you are. I am so glad that I stumbled upon your blog:)

Margo said...

Thanks, Katherine. I have so far to go in this area, but for the first time in my life I can honestly say that I'm on the right track. Now it's a matter of patience and trust. I know he will finish His work in all of us. He's faithful!

Midsummer Night said...

Embracing my place in motherhood is hard. For so long I worked for a company that was fabulous for making sure every single employee was appreciated. There was a whole program devoted to making sure we knew we were valuable.

This motherhood thing is different. Thank yous don't come every time I change a diaper, or every time I cook, or clean etc.I have tried three times now to sign up for school again. I want a degree that I can use for a part time job.

Every single time I sign up I find myself pregnant within weeks. The third baby is once again, due in the middle of what would have been my first semester. I guess I am just slow to realize that God wants me home right now. It's hard.

Munchkin Land said...

Hmmmm... I'll be honest, my first thought was that this didn't apply to me because I don't want these years to rush on. I'm trying to stop and enjoy every moment. But then I had to take a step back and realize that every time I want to be left alone, or I'm upset with Jon for not doing "his" share, or I'm counting down the hours until bedtime, then I am not living in THIS moment.

Thanks for making me stop and reflect today. What a great reminder!

Mary@notbefore7 said...

What an honest email and thought from Margo! Me too, Margo! I needed to hear that. Sometimes I just wish for some of it to pass so I can get some sleep, or rest, or a moment where i am not filling a sippe cup! I definately need to pray about accepting where I am!

angeleyes Blue said...

I hate to admit it but I LOVE MY LIFE!! I even have 2 teenagers. What is that about?

After reading all of this including what other bloggers have said I am reminded once again that sometimes...actually most times... God's Time doesn't always match Pam's time.

I do trust that God has a plan that hasn't yet been revealed to me.

Chin up ladies--Summer is almost over, school will be starting soon and if you need to put things on the back burner once again because of this thing called Life (or pregnancy) that is where they will stay safe and sound until God's plan is revealed.

The Chirgwin family said...

This seems like the song or 'reprise' of my life right now. Contentment- but more than that finding joy and peace in what I do - the mundane laundry, diapers, kissing boo-boos, making dinner... Thanks so much for your encouragement!

mommy to four j's said...

Hi i stopped by your blog I really enjoyed it. thanks for the encouragment Char

Nicole said...

Yes, yes and yes! This is so the cry of my heart. God, change me to be more like you.

Thanks for ministering to all of us moms out here!